Steer clear of the Sun, or you'll find yourself in the Sea

perhaps

2011-04-18T03:33:00.003+08:00

it is 3.33 am and i am currently looking for something to do other than this horrific GP essay regarding sustaining the environment and getting me to do research on the web on it isn't helping when all i'm doing is going back on forth on Livejournal and Twitter and now, hello Blogger? i miss this space, maybe i should come back here : ) my viewership is probably 1 now, me, there hasn't been many that interested in this life of mine too. this blog was the platform for everyone human to cast their judgement upon me and sometimes i do question my purpose on telling the world my woes and issues when all these fading faces can do is pass a remark "are you ok?" or a mere smile. i should get back to my essay now i have three hours : ) goodnight world.

good morning

2011-04-14T18:05:00.008+08:00

i just wanted to do a little picture update, goodbye.

friends lovers and friends

Drown

2010-10-16T00:06:00.002+08:00

Hello, I doubt anyone really reads this but it is still pretty refreshing to blog here once a month or so. My promos have finally (with a huge gasp of relief) ended, and well I must say it's a massive load off my chest along with the haunting Grade8 Piano Exam which I have (Finally) passed as well. Life hasn't exactly been any tard better, I find myself more lonesome than ever. The nights I spend dwelling in a vacuum of darkness, with the sheets over my head, and the TV casting my favourite crime-busters. I sleep, everynight, with the TV on so I wouldn't feel so empty before dreaming of a better day. You know how people always say things get better through time, honestly, they never do, we simply assimilate ourselves into the lives we have settled for after a tough time. The bitterness that has already seeped past our skin and bones, into our untainted souls, settles, gently. I can't say I enjoy this silence, but I am learning to forgive myself for choosing this route to learn a better way to live. It is never the darkness that kills us, but the perpetual search for the light that does. I have learnt, through the famine and the homocides everyday, that I will never be able to live and love like how i did. But I thank God and heaven for the angels in my life, everyday. :)

Felly is beside me now, we're both using our laptops, doing work or searching new gossips, or blogging I have really no idea. But I love the idea she is here, I love how she's always been here. Miss you Chrissypoo, see you tomorrow :)

Miss you Baoz

study dates much?

Love you idiots even though u guys always piss me off :)

Goodnight world :)

Sometimes, I wonder if all this darkness happens for a reason. And whether we are actually supposed to undergo this fragility to make ourselves stronger. What if we are not, what if we remain? I miss you, so much.

But goodnight.

Skin deep

2010-09-06T18:32:00.010+08:00

It's been awhile since I've touched skin here, I must admit I miss the experience blogging where public reads. Everything I write now is pretty much private, and I enjoy th freedom to free myself with words and not be judged at every word I pen. Life has been , different for me. Much different than how I used to blog about it. SAJC has been a great experience and I've assimilated so much within the lifestyle and people there, it's a wonder why I was told that I'd never find true/great friends within the short 2 years. The stress is, empowering and I have never felt so suffocated by the obligations I am faced with. And then again, it beats the judgement and wary eyes Cedar was every second of the bleeding day. I miss the girls though, very very much. Here's a little picture update.

Ubin 10

Lovely class

My Eskimo friend, Ryan :)

How to not fall in love with her? :) Zappy Vee!

Love you babe :)

It's amazing the things we share now hhehe

Adventures

Been my fav since 08

Ignite music fest

Bao's birthday

I'd choose a nicer picture but we don't take pictures whilst at Chips I found out

RockClimbing 10 :)

Your porcelain skin, the veins that race wild at the tip of your eyelids, I love you Siu Siu!!

Lyddy's birthday

Orientation :)

Old class

I've changed, I've fled.

And now I hardly understand the little things that peer into my life so suddenly. And now I realised how sometimes I shouldn't attempt to understand. Because despite everything happening for a reason, life has it's subtle ways of telling them to us along the way and me, being me, meek and mere, should never pry.

Hurt, it means so much more now. It surpasses blades and burns and pills. It attacks the mind, after the heart. And it sinks and settles itself so gently and so painlessly into the deepest trenches in your skin, in your bones. I love you, I haven't said anything like that for years. It doesn't make sense after you've found the only person you felt you meant it saying it.

Goodbye, I've had so many. Goodnight, good morning. Mornings, they never seem that bright any longer am I right? Not as we perceived the sunshine and sunlight to be anymore, there will always be a violent bend about the burning red and all we will ever see is a nude shade of pink. And that is all life will ever be, nude.

I cannot tell you how much I've changed,

I cannot tell you how much I love the change.

I cannot tell you how much I'd love to drown myself in a mist of grey skies submerging into a pale grey sea. That will, be home.

HACKED

2010-06-21T10:50:00.001+08:00

Hi all, so I just got hacked on my FB, MSN and HOTMAIL.
So, please do not talk to me on MSN because the hacker will hack you as well. Sigh.
Anyway, add me on msn thatsimpletouch@gmail.com

And I'm trying to get my FB back SIGH.

Hello world

2010-05-17T23:56:00.006+08:00

Hello best friends, I'm so lucky to have you guys in my life now. SAJC isn't as bad as I thought it'd be, I find myself quite enjoying the hectic and bustling life in college :) And even though we dream about life without the white and blue uniform, I know we're all thankful of the phrase "No one is here by chance" because it is truly evident. I am blessed with you beautiful people :)

I wonder if anyone still visits this blog, it's been so long, so many memories I try to cast behind my mind, beneath this virtual world. Yet everytime I chance upon this site again, I never fail to look back. The archives, the words I used to write, I feel so ashamed of my childishness and foolishness in the past, I wonder if I ever think before I write in the past. Well, life's like that, I suppose moving on was the best thing that occurred in my life thus far. And for everyone that's been in and out of my life, I regret knowing that you were never a constant. Sigh, words, words are my only release nowadays. I am grateful I found beauty in language and a love for the wit and humor and pain put all in one.

I admit I miss the life I used to have, the adventures, the thrill, the reluctance to abide. I wish I had the same failure to be responsible, I wish reality never knocked on my door. But everyone grows up someday, and my day came the moment I caved in and realised how alone I was. Subtly the people that never left you, they come through, as your only light. Then you recognise how naive you were all along to believe that true love only comes once. Because my true love's been circling me over and over again, everyday. Here I stand with empty hands, empty hearts, empty blood, nothing but a sense of gratitude, for whoever attempted to save me once in my lifetime.

Never lands/

X

2010-01-12T11:03:00.002+08:00

Disappointment, again I guess. It never really stops. I wished 2010 would be a better year, now it throws me a major setback that'd take me a long time to accept. Look forward , keep it real. I should be stronger than this now. It says a lot about me, I think I should work harder than what i used to.

2009-12-15T14:13:00.002+08:00

Tell me what to say so you don’t leave me
The world is catching up to you
while your running away to chase your dream
Its time for us to make a move cause we are asking one another to change and maybe im not ready

if I sing you a song would you sing along
or wait till im gone , oh how we push and pull
if I give you my heart would you just play the part
or tell me it’s the start of something beautiful

but im trying for your love I can hide up above
I will try for your love we’ve been hiding enough

Birthday Boy

2009-11-25T09:21:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday Alonso :}
I hope you come back to the Reds soon, it's just not the same without you.

2009-10-26T00:14:00.002+08:00

So I say, Thank you Liverpool from the bottom of my heart.
Now, to face the big Os in peace.

If Liverpool could do it when everyone doubted them, I can too.
X

2009-10-17T13:52:00.001+08:00

I miss us

Cedar

2009-10-11T20:26:00.002+08:00

What makes the exhausting 4 years all worth while.
Thank you for walking it through with me.

Cedar is nothing without you girls <3>

This Heart

2009-10-05T20:28:00.000+08:00

It beats,
beats for only you.

My heart is yours.

Mer

2009-09-14T17:53:00.003+08:00

I will miss you to hell, Mer.
I hope Nottingham treats you well, I'm going to miss you truck loads.
I guess it's because Beng makes you so much a part of our family that it was actually comforting and heartwarming to have a sister at home with me. I'll miss you.

I hope Beng doesn't cry too much tonight!
We love you, Mer.

X.

2009-09-01T21:38:00.003+08:00

Spammers never give me a break, and I'm never ever satisfied with this fucked up life of mine.
This is me giving up. I am tired, I wonder why you all aren't.

4am,

2009-09-01T11:47:00.003+08:00

While waiting for Luke yesterday I received a call from Fel.

Fel : Yes call me for what?

Azel : Huh? I didn't call you!

Fel : Oh but I got miss call from you!!

(3 seconds later)

Fel : Omg, ok that was the 29th August. HAHAHA SORRY OMG.

Azel : Fel, you are the biggest bimbo ever.

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Hans till 4am last night with Drey and Luke :} Attempts of full concentration ended up in countless smoke and toilet breaks. I swear Dad fell asleep on me and forgot to ring me to pick me up. Thanks for the walk home :] We'll attempt this once more soon.

Xo hots! I'm off for xcore muggin with BBF xP

Just felt like scaring people hehehhehe.

ANBERLIN WORTH IT ALL

2009-08-31T02:23:00.006+08:00

The last day of Baybeats was honestly awesome beyond words. Started off with Anberlin's acoustic set and we were all already blown away ! And I totally went "OH MY GOD ANBERLIN" when they walked past us I wonder why no one else went crazy?! they were like, RIGHT INFRONT of our faces!

Anyway, FTC was great as usual :) Being No.1 supporters we totally squeezed infront haha!
And Bung totally hates me for introducing Nat to FTC hehe x) And right, ANBERLIN OMG ok although I only caught half of it IT WAS MADNESS WORTH EVERY SWEAT WE WERE INFESTED WITH AND oh gosh ok Anberlin hangover.

Meeting my lovely bro was like the highlight of the evening :) Stop being a slut Luke! Love you <3

A night to remember :)

As I said before, Life is really quite perfect when you have the right people around you.

After today, it's back to mugging. Baybeats was fucking awesome I must say :} Looking forward o next year's already HAHA. Goodnight world, I'm going to dream about someone wonderful now :]

Xo hots.

Headbangs and Hot chicks

2009-08-30T09:11:00.007+08:00

Late night practices :)

Special thanks for 4P for being such a lovely class

And to Bung and Drey for helping me out so much it's really heartwarming to see you guys care so much :)

Sharianty my annoying!! Thank you for always seeing how I am, always telling me not to be stressed. Garde did a fantastic job I'm so glad you guys got 2nd at least :) I'll come back next year to see what you guys can do.

Celine as long as you stop being so gay and annoying I will thank you alr :)

Kimberly!!!!!!!! I swear you make the cutest cheer capt and yes, thank you for making cheerleading so much less stressful and competitive. Cheer's never been so fun with other houses and Garde really made it super fun. I'm looking forward to next year !!

Gay kids at Baybeats HAHA.

Yes and they HAD to want to be in the picture

HAHAHHAAHAHAHAHAHAHABUNG MY FAVVVVVVVV.

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I don't really need to express how much I love Ole 09 and even though I'm (tmd) disappointed with the results I must say that I don't regret one single bit. Love my cheerleaders with all my heart and soul thank you for the past month :]

And special thanks to the bestest bestest support group I had, not only Queen and XY for slogging out together despite our Prelims. Drey and Bung for helping out for every prac (oh AND NATT TOO!!). Junie and Jolene even though we're super sad you guys couldn't be part of it all thank you so much for helping out x) Thank you Garde cheer for being our best friends and congrats over the win x) Thanks Gaydad, YJ, Scary Fel and my mom for coming to support me. Esp Dad he's been there all 4 years aww :) Cheer made me realise who's been there for me all this while.

Baybeats on Saturday was AWESOME. Mainly bcos we got to meet all the long lost friends that we failed to meet up with due to exams and all. Hopefully today we'd get to see more of them :] Didn't get to catch FTC cos I was really late but nehmind, tnight will be round 2!

Life's been good with you guys around.

And soccer's been great too!

Last night :

Fel "Azel you try to give them a kiss for good luck maybe they can score."

Azel "MUUUUUACCCCCKKKKKKS"

2 seconds later. Glen Johnson takes the ball and does a FANTASTIC kick and SCORES.

HAHAHAHAHAA.

Azel Han the lucky charm :)

Xo hots.

Thank you Ole

2009-08-28T21:59:00.002+08:00

Ole cheer was the only thing in my life the past month that prevented me from giving up on myself. I thank you beautiful cheerleaders from the bottom of my heart.

V

RESPONSIBILITY

2009-08-26T21:21:00.001+08:00

I will not tolerate bullshit from people,
now when they don't do their fucking jobs it's time for us to pick up the fucking bullshit and work everything out.

Cheer's in one fucking day how the fuck am I going to fucking get everything done by one fucking day. I need to fucking chill.

Jenna Haze has no boobs haha

2009-08-25T19:08:00.003+08:00

(I just typed a whole post out and deleted it cos it sounded so senseless and stupid hhehe)

1) FUCK YOU PRELIMS WHOOHOO

2) A lot of different chinese medicine to drink cos of Orals tmrw

3) BABEATS IN 3 DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! time to get out of my study coop

4) sports day is coming, nearer bby the second :( Ole pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls kick ass haha.

5) Lucas can go and seriously die what the fuck is he trying to prove with that fucking own goal

Thank you wadwereyouthinking I should stop ranting. OK I can't believe I'm hvng Orals tuition hehe. Xo hots.

My soul slides away

2009-08-25T04:59:00.004+08:00

Take me to a place that you go,

that nobody knows

If it's day or night.

Please don't put your life in the hands,

of a Rock and Roll band,

who'll throw it all away.

Stand up beside the fireplace,

Take that look from off your face.

Cause you ain't gonna burn my heart out.

So don't look back in anger.

I heard her say.

Roaring good time

2009-08-24T20:43:00.003+08:00

MS SWITZERLAND IS CHIO TO THE MAX AND BEYOND OH MY GOODNESS!

And I CONTRIBUTED TO GARDE'S BANNER TODAY! ultimate traitor hehe. Fun time with Sherlin Toh our newest addition to the Ole squad :) Bung you make a lovely cheer director k :D School is surprisingly pretty amazingly fun at times when you're with the right people :} Cheer this year is going to be so entertaining !

Last paper tmrw, Let's go cedar let's go :)

Stolen my world

2009-08-24T02:41:00.005+08:00

As Reina would tell us "rock on", we will simply have to carry on with the mundane and fucked up life we lead everyday. Liverpool at the end of the year is the only thing on our minds, keeping us fucking sane :)

Sharianty is hilarious we exchanged cheer songs and I didn't let her accept it until she sent me hers. We ended up pretending to be totally secretive when we knew there isn't gonna be any difference whether or not we knew each other's songs. Haha, Silly girl :}

I'm here, 2.43am, studying my final fucking chapter for fucking geography.

I don't really care whether I'm going to pass/fail but I just need to get it over and done with.

I looked into the mirror just now and thought I looked fucking bad. I'm going to need a bra to hold up my terrible eyebags :(

Can't wait for Friday. Can't wait to feel the "reliefed" feeling and I can't wait to let everything else go. Studying must be #1 priority (!!)

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They always reach a sorry ending

They always get it in the end.

Still it was worth it as I turned the pages solemnly, and then

With a winning smile, the boy

With naivety succeeds

At the final moment, I cried

I always cry at endings

Bestest

2009-08-23T17:38:00.005+08:00

"Ole's the bestest, you can't deny the bestest."

Good morning world,

I hate to say this over and over again.

I'M TOTALLY NOT PREPARED FOR GEOG LAA. And wanna know (again) the reason for my failure to prepare?

The girls I can't help but love like siao crazy wanna die ttm.

Zel "ok we go uni together we rent room stay tgt k?"

Chris "HAHA you wash clothes, I pack pack the house!"

Fel "ME LEH? i stand there and beautify the place!!"

Chris " shut up fel. YOU PAY THE RENT HAHA"

Yay love you girls like mad siaaaaaaa :}

Ok xo hots!

Nothing is built to last, we're in ruins

2009-08-22T13:43:00.005+08:00

Just ended an intensive cheer prac at TPY stadium. Thank you Ole for being more cooperative I hope everyone can have the same strong drive to win. Sharianty is right, everyone wants to win so badly this year. I'm quite addicted to finding songs to cheer to, I love remixes it's so interesting how two songs can be so in sync together and sound so nice when mixed togher.

(after many hours)

Ok I realised that instead of completing my tuition homework I actually zonked out on my bed and adding to that, I had a 3hour chem tuition and I am too tired to go to my granny's. :(

Ogays dinner then for xcore mugging whoohoo.

Oh, I LOST THE MOST IMPORTANT PAPER IN THE WORLD:(:(:(

quote of the day from Joey : " Oh you mean Oleander's a flower?"

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA.

Annoying Pig

2009-08-21T23:38:00.002+08:00

To a friend,
it doesn't matter how the world comes crashing down on you, or how everything turns out the wrong way. And it doesn't matter if nobody is able to do anything about your plight, but I hope you do realise we're all willing to lend you a shoulder to cry on and an arm to bite when you're down and out.

I'd rather listen to your whines, complaints, ramblings a million times than to witness your frown (which makes you look even uglier than usual!)

To the girl I deemed my "pretty girl" in the past (now u're just annoying), I hope you become strong girl like Tarzan. I love you with my heart, arms, legs, hair, FACE, haha. Please don't die :)

Belief

2009-08-20T23:19:00.002+08:00

Lolli introduced me this fantastic website that totally shows a true personality it's so true I'm honestly freaked out!

You have exaggerated demands on life but you are cautious enough to try to hide these beliefs from the outside world.

You need to be recognised as a 'caring person' and it could be that you are searching to establish a relationship, not necessarily with someone new, but with that someone special who could feel the same way as you do.

You are able to obtain satisfaction from various forms of physical or emotional activity but all in all you are inclined to be emotionally withdrawn. As a consequence of this you find it difficult to sustain any deep involvement.

You are experiencing more than your fair share of stress following an acute disappointment. You have no doubt that things could get better in the future and so you refuse to make the necessary essential decisions.

You are moody and depressed at this time but it will pass. All of your hopes and dreams seem to have gone astray and you are fearful of planning further for the future.

Haha anyway, www.goldinuniverse.com :)

I cant wait for after O Levels to actually have a proper date with Lolli, and Janey !! We must accomplish our Starbucks @ Cathay reunion soon. Good times, good times.

Good morning

2009-08-20T05:32:00.002+08:00

To everyone I've let down,
or to everyone that let me down.

I made a mark so I'd never forget you.

To every opportunity I missed,
Or every task I fail to commit.

I made a mark so I'd learn from it.

Just for one more night, I'd like to feel like an actual being again.

What stays

2009-08-18T21:35:00.003+08:00

Missyou89.

All my life, I never understood the meaning of "the strongest love is a mother's love for her child."

I pray everyday that i won't be an inch more like her.
What's the use of having all that materialistic posessions when you do not know one bit about your own daughter?

I thank God everyday for a Dad like mine.

He's the only reason I stay sane in this madhouse of mine <3

Get me away from here I'm dying

2009-08-17T20:22:00.006+08:00

For Fel's birthday, probably a million years since I've stepped into town, also one of the crowdest times I've been in Orchard. I saw a familiar face.

Haha, someone i only see twice in a year for the past.... 5 years? And someone that I never ever lose contact with! Hello quek ji hao, please don't be so tramautisd the next time you see the short little me on the streets of orchard road :)

Here on my own now after hours

Here on my own now on a bus

Think of it this way

You could either be successful or be us

Falling against the lonely tenement

Has set my mind to wander

Into the windows of my lovers

They never know unless I write

"This is no declaration, I just thought I'd let you know goodbye"

Oh get me away I'm dying...

-On replay

I have honestly never been so fucking exhausted in my life. Prelims2 is kicking me down and out but I know everyone's going through the same thing. So, cheers to everyone dying out there. I hope we can make it through.

My dear Sister...

2009-08-15T18:46:00.004+08:00

To the girl that's number 1 on my phone list to call whenever something wrong happens.
and the girl who'd pop by my house when I tell her "I'm lonely".
and the girl who looks 100% like me just that she got nice legs and I don't.

Forever and ever she'll be by my side, despite the fact she's 3 years older.
Forever and ever I'll be hers to keep, because we're all in it together.

" Everytime someone doesn't reply for super long I take out my phone battery and put it back and restart the phone in hopes my phone spoil."
:) Our little secrets in the middle of the night and how I'd fall asleep on you all the time.

Happy Birthday Mrs gerrard. I love you and every single unglam moments of you.

2009-08-15T06:04:00.002+08:00

Whatever I say I'll do,
I'm a shadow for you.

Whatever I say I'll do,
I remain invisible to you

Breather

2009-08-13T01:00:00.002+08:00

V. says :
"OMG HE CAN RAP!"

False Hope. says:
can beatbox also.

V. says:
WAHSEH, WHAT IS HE?!

False Hope. says:
HAHAHA
robot

And this is what I do in between breaks. But anyway, I am going to sleep.
Once again, unbothered, unconcerned, completely reluctant to do yet another paper...

Oh, the Newpaper cracked me up today (and made Fel boil in fury).
So the front page goes "REPLACEMENT FOR ALONSO ........ (flip to back page)"
Haha, guess who? None other than out favourite player of the season LUCAS!!!

Ok, I am officially zonked out. Cheer is kicking me and killing me I need to know how to be stronger (Mentally and physically). Oh btw, I have a new blog!! :)

Xo hots.

Despondent

2009-08-11T00:59:00.003+08:00

Truthfully, I have nothing to offer but a clean sheet of paper for tomorrow and the days to come.
I've lost all ability to produce a mere pass, what's more a distinction.
I'm gearing myself up for yet another massive disappointment, when it all boils down to results, I just realise I'm not working hard enough.

Praying for a damned miracle to brighten and lighten my day.

Happy Birthday Janey :)
No matter what, you'll always remain one of the best and closest friends I've had.
I'll never forget all the things we did together, all the good and the bad times...
Whatever it is, thank you for always having my back and I hope you enjoy your birthday today :]
Love you babe.

:) Last year on this day haha. I hope you're doing well.

We're waiting to burn

2009-08-10T15:51:00.003+08:00

To my girlies, please be good hardworking girls we will meet for the Scary No.2's 19th birthday (So eggciting!!)

Anyway, Bung surprised me with a sweet text wah so sweet totally melted to the ground and evaporated into the atmosphere can? HAHA, hogays. I have to stop thinking about cheer as of now. Think Engrish Engrish............................................................................................................

I love Belle & Sebastian!!!!!

I really learnt a lot.

2009-08-10T02:04:00.005+08:00

Wish I had the fucking perseverance to concentrate.
I need to stop biting my nails it's bleeding everywhere :(

On a lighter note, The Queen is seriously one of the best friends I've made in Cedar. Drey and I were talking about her today and we realised we really been through a lot of problems with her. It's not that she's really attractive, or really hot, or really smart, or really amazingly talented, BUT we really love her for who she is and what she brings to the table everyday :) I'm kedding, queen you are one of a kind (no matter protractor, curve rule, ruler, compass)

Luv it that she's the best artist ever. Forever you will be the in my heart <3>

Xo hots!

Mornings

2009-08-09T21:40:00.002+08:00

Mornings always determine what's going to happen for the entire day.
I hate to wake up not knowing how I fell asleep,
I hate to wake up without a text on my phone,
I hate waking up with no plans for the day.

On a brighter note, Happy birthday Singapore :) I promise never to leave you unless Alonso takes me away to Spain hehe. National Day was spent at NP with Pingpong studying, and talking and talking HAHA. I was patriotic enough to wear red and white (Thumbs up for me).

Mer's here, Beng's back, Happy national day to all of you :) I'm going to shower power.
Haha it's so funny how everyone's all connected one way or another, Man Utd - Chelsea tonight OMGGGGGGG.

Xo hots!

Our National Day!

2009-08-08T09:43:00.008+08:00

To me, National day in Cedar is a day to check out which football team Cedarians/teachers support. And, of course, a time where Cedarians go wild and the teachers play along :)

It's the last year and I must say running around the entire courtyard being terribly unglam, snatching the mic away from Lee, shoulder sitting on the Queen, being photographed like crazy cos we were so noisy, jumping with Mdm Audra and Mrs woo, MRS WOO'S LIVERPOOL BABY HEHE, Aiyo I'm going to miss this :} Thank you 4P it was wonderful.

Cheerleading WAS TMD FUN LAH HAHAHHHAHA.

Mr Tan think he damn cool, but his Man Utd crest so small can?

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH (my sudden 5min fetish)

Study time with Drey @ Airpork.

Technology makes stalking so much easier :) Love it that drey's got her Itouch now we can stalk anywhere, anytime HAHA.

And drey can't camwhore for nuts all she takes is me HAHA. tsk.

Alrighties, back to mugging session. I'm so ... unbothered about prelims. Apart from the fact it's eating up my energy, and adding on to my already abnormally bad weight... This is what happens when I have no more motive in life. Tmd I want to move back to Lentor badly.

I miss the playground, I miss my NEIGHBOUR HAHA, I miss the midnight jogs and joggers, I miss the lamppost outside the estate, I miss the upslopes that I always run up and down, I miss the foresty areas where I always presume snakes appear, I miss the pretty girl opp my house, I miss not being able to walk home from YCK, I miss walking to AMK Ave 3 from my house, I miss hitching rides from random strangers at my area, I miss being so close to BBF, I miss my home seriously.

Xo hots.

YOUR XABI ALONSO

2009-08-07T21:38:00.002+08:00

HAHA Azel I just chanced upon these pictures and I wna show you his happy family. Hahaha this is quite sweet right haha okay enough of hacking your acc I need to study.

LOVE YOU AND SEE YOU TMR UGLIEST (:

Your love, Felicia

And what happens

2009-08-07T13:20:00.002+08:00

The scars that never stop appearing,

The wounds that can't seem to heal.

This is me.

@ 12:34:56, 070809 , Ole wished everyone a Happy Special Day :)

14

2009-08-05T08:28:00.003+08:00

And so it is, the 14 I've supported for 3-4 years is gone, just pooof and to Real Madrid he goes.

The thing is I don't get how he could've made up his mind to leave sucha beautiful team like Lvp. He's the 8th signing of Real this season, how far can he go?! Aite, 43mil was a good price, but it would've been more worth it for him to stay.

But whatever it is, Lvp remains my No.1. It's going to be so different now but I'm glad I got to watch him in action in SG :)

OH RIGHT, I'M SICK AND RECUPERATING AT HOME X)

Dreaming's for losers, we only believe what we see in the light.

Xo hots.

Stupid Monkeys

2009-08-03T22:07:00.003+08:00

I told her I needed to pee 4 times and she gave me the same "look" over and over again.

I had a hard time knowing what chocolates she wants and I still call them Van Hel Sien (HAH) chocolates. And she hates the fact I like the mini MnMs!

We had a tough adventure (ok I had) regarding my Bio TYS and all she could do WAS LAUGH. We arrived back at 7SS for good pasta with the family and I realised how she was just like a part of me already.

I am sick, like (finally). And because I h8 the doctors, Dad's having his own speculations that I may be having Hi-Ni (H1N1). Haha, I luv being sick, makes me feel human :}

Till the next time I owe someone starbucks tmd.

Xo hots.

Happy Birthday Boys!

2009-08-03T01:15:00.002+08:00

To the No.1 spelling bee Quek Ji Hao.

And my forever and ever Rayyyyymoooose.

Two of my favourite boys of all time, thank you for being so patient with me during our times together. I'm forever grateful to everything you've done for me. Happy birthday Roy and Ray (omg so cool).

Xo hots! Anyway I can't stop watching the cheer video it's hilarious. Ole cheer FTW. Shut up Lee.

The light in my life

2009-08-02T21:15:00.000+08:00

This is why I love Ole Cheer 09.

I was always set to self destruct

2009-08-02T06:03:00.003+08:00

I miss my old hair,
I miss my old room,
I miss my old arms,
I miss my old smile.

I miss my ever lasting brother who doesn't seem to get tired of me whining about the same thing over and over again and still manage to talk me out of doing things that'd hurt myself even more.

I never wanted to admit it but I think I'm getting tired. For two nights I've slept and no amount of alarms/phonecalls/wake up calls/pulling me from my bed/slapping me awake..... has gotten me awake! I DO NOT want to resort to red bull :( Aites, I will look forward to the starting of soccer in 2 weeks, and F1 in a month (?), and of course Cheerleading for every prac :}

Good night world, Xo hots.

Ole Cheerleading

2009-08-01T12:36:00.004+08:00

The dedication to cheerleading will kick me in the ass big time. But the cheerleaders make me smile so much I'm so happy every cheer prac :) I don't know why but since this year the preparation for cheer has been cut down to such a short time, every house is really giving their all.

Today I had such a bad morning, but after the auditions Ole girls were just dancing to all the different kinds of music, doing stupid stunts, cartwheels, splits, taking videos, doing exercises... I never really had such a fun cheer squad all my 4 years. I hope (crosses fingers and toes) that it will be a boom-boom-pow effect this year.

All the stress will be worth it

A fire a fire, you can only take what you can carry
A pulse your pulse, it's the only thing I can remember
I break you don't, I was always set to self-destruct though
The fire the fire, it cracks and barks like primal music

Snow Patrol Is good.

EXPRESS YOURSELF WORX,

2009-07-31T22:28:00.005+08:00

Before I start anything, Happy birthday Pingpong :)

Today was express yourself day, I'm so happy 4P was so enthu everyone came in their geekiest self! And today, I found out how the sec3 juniors were actually a bunch of completely rubbished people that are the most fun loving of all :)

ESP PEI YAN HAHAHAHHA :p

Celine and the super dark picture HAHA

4P with CHOOON HUI!!!!!!! ultimate cuteness we danced hiphop in geek outfit

Clara was rly rly hot today!!

this is why she's my 2nd favourtie HHAA

:) Two very annoying juniors but so lovable awww.

Lee thinks she veh cool

Tiff, Drey, Celine, Zel!

QUEENIE HAD THE CUTEST FACIAL EXPRESSIONS TODAY

Pingpong's surprise

I love u 4p!!!!

And my dear Lovers Clique :)

(Devil, Nerd, Hiphop, Princess, Bohemian)

SEXY

Mdm Audra :)

HAHAHA "pls do not touch the artwork"

BOTB I LOVE YOU

Birthday Girl :)

Wah im damn tired i hate tagging ppl on FB im so lazy! EYD was so fun today I think 4p really really really was super cute today! I'm so happy we're all so happy together :} Drey hope u enjoyed your surprises the whole class had to CRACK heads to think.

More more more more events to come! Now i'm so tired but I got so much things to settle :/ ok xo hots!

Monsters

2009-07-30T21:42:00.004+08:00

School was tiring as usual, I've been having 430am nights/mornings again. Grace says I'm getting "winks" instead of actually sleep! So, basically she says "have good winks" instead of "have good sleep". The size of my eyes are depleting by the second and soon I'd be smiling with lines as my eyes.

But anyhohow, I had a fun time attempting to be discrete about leaving class during Amaths mock and finding the Sec1 cheerleaders. Also, Lee you are such an annoying piece of shit thank god you learnt to shut up after I textd you!

Monsters picked me up from school after cheer and we headed to one of our favourite places for good seafood :) We saw a Babel Lookalike :O Ate a lot a lot, and we came back to 7SS for the viewing of Scary3's mini-bdaypresent! (The other one's on the way from England hAHHAHA)

Tmr's BE YOURSELF DAY! Wished I could just wear a LVP jersey and get it over and done with :p I mean, that's really Me right? The best part about having 10s of Lvp shirts/jerseys is that we never have to ponder really hard how to mix and match! Lvp shirts always look best :

Xo hots Wo Yao Shui Jiao.

Mrs Carragher

2009-07-30T02:35:00.003+08:00

Mrs Carragher, I honestly can't believe YOU'RE SLEEPING AT 12AM ON YR BIRTHDAY -.-

Fel posted something veh cute on her blog for you, this means I have to be the mushy one ...

Dear Chris, the 3rd president of Monsters Club,

Happy 16th Birthday :) You, are officiallly older than me. I am officially pissed off -.-

Pity Liverpool couldn't be in SG on your birthday, but I'm so sure that you've been the happiest ever those 3 days. Esp since we got you Carra's autograph hehe x)

The thing about Monsters is that we're seriously the worst at expressing love to one another. THe way we hit one another, whine in each other's faces, we've never said "I love you" to each other before, all we've been doing is killing one another with annoying stunts and sleepless nights. But I think the time spent with Monsters is always time well spent :) A good balance between work and play (ok not really....), but whatever it is, the fun never stops.

I'm so happy we share the same hobbies/obsessions. And chris it's been the best 3days chasing after LVP together. We've been the closest for the longest time, and I'm sure it's going to last. (this is prolly THE ONLY relationship i know will last HAHA) !!

Happy birthday Chris, you're honestly the most quietly loud monster and even though you're always the one who is SEEMINGLY most sane, WE'VE SAW YOUR TRUE COLORS DRG LVP HAHA. Love u forever Monster <3

Happy 16th.

LVP

2009-07-28T19:31:00.001+08:00

A photo I'm keeping for life.

You

2009-07-28T19:06:00.002+08:00

A walk to remember remains my favourite film of all time..

Without suffering there would be no compassion.
Yeah, well tell that to those who suffer.

X.

2009-07-28T03:04:00.003+08:00

Amazing how new friends come about.
Tmrw, I start days of hunger.

I luv to torture myself, everyone knows that :}
Let's see how far I go this time round.
Fun.

LVP WEBSITE

2009-07-27T19:50:00.002+08:00

GUESS WHO MADE IT TO LVP'S WEBSITE.

http://www.liverpoolfc.tv/news/drilldown/N165192090727-1107.htm

STRESS

2009-07-27T17:52:00.003+08:00

Zomg I didn't think cheer'd be so stressful, but it's getting better :) It was a good day with my cheerleadeers though! :)

Today's liverpool hangover Day 1. Also, 14 days to Prelims2. Also, a few days to Chris and Drey's birthday. HAHA FUCK.

Wonder what'd be in my life now that Lvps gone :/ Whatever it is, Monsters you girls are my No.1 and I'm quite glad we're going to walk through this final thingy together :) 1111 will be the day we fly off to Thailand together. And in December, we walk through the gates of Anfield together!

We don't need to prove to anyone what can or will make us happy.

The important thing is to finally be able to live for yourself.

I will end off my cynical days.

:Let the dead bury the dead (HAHAHAHAHHA ATTICUS WORX)

Xo hots!

Cut me into half, I bleed Liverpool Red

2009-07-27T00:12:00.008+08:00

Amazing how everyone cheered when Alonso touched the ball. I know he wont go after seeing the KOP's need for him.

(Day 1)

We met this lovely girl Priscilla!

(Day1 @ national stadium)

DR FUN!!!

Random passersby. :) But one liverpool family.

(Day 2 @ river cruise)

Interviewed by BBC

The man who made it all happen, Steve Mchamon.

DR FUN'S TATTOO

Tell me what's not to love about Xabi Alonso

carra :)

Reina was so enthu he stood up all the way

ALONSO'S KILLER SMILE

Riera got the best face

"Jump in jump in!"

NAMETH IS MY NEW "TO GO AFTER"

SAMMY LEEE!!!

Our new signing Glen Johnson!

Reina!!

WE DID THIS SIGN TO REINA, HE DID IT BACK TO US.

The match just ended, there goes my liverpool days. These 3 days have been the best fucking days of my life. I am so proud to tell everyone I am a Liverpool fan. :) From day 1, it's always been Liverpool. Till the end of my life, it'd still be the Reds.

Till the day we go to Anfield, i will countdown once more. I love liverpool so much so much so much. It's just so sad to see them leave. The comforting fact is that the KOP loves ALonso just as much as I do (no i totally love him more). Seeing alonso play, is seriously a dream come true :)

Now, it's just the Olevels in my life. but it's alright. At least, I have had the best experience in my life (very short life). Liverpool, with the family I love the most.

Xo hots

YNWA

2009-07-24T03:50:00.003+08:00

Our journey embarks here and I hope it goes beyond this three days.
I can't express how fucking excited I am, I've already prepared 3days of LVP clothing for my 3 day stay @ YJ/RK's house :)

I feel so lucky that this is actually happening to us :)
Aite, till 3 days later :) Be back with massive LVP photos and the brightest beam on my face :)

Haha, anyway I was massively trying to get people to buy the tickets and it sparked off this hours and hours long conversation with my 1-lesson maths teacher. The world, is really really small. We meet new people every corner we turn, let's hope Alonso is somehow, somewhat, someway linked to me!!!

Liverpool , here Monsters come :)

2009-07-23T23:03:00.002+08:00

Bang chee bitch Chroning chron, Tomorrow you become a Man :) I'll miss you like how I already do, be good! Alice I miss you peautiful hair <3

Welcome to Singapore Liverpool :)

Felicia Lim my annoying cousin has just won herself ANOTHER 2 tickets for Liverpool, I have no idea how many contests she plans to join. But anyway, pls contact her/me if you guys are interested in the tickets :)

Had such an exciting day today, counting down to Lvp's touchdown, calling Fel and screaming and screaming (before Maths mock) HAHA. We're going crazyyyyyyy!!! Can't wait to see who turns up at Novena tmrw (crosses fingers that it's be Alonso and Torres/Carra!)

Xo hots I'm EXHAUSTED but I got a lot of work to do. Timetable girl I hope you're doing well with your timetable.

TOMORROW THE DAY WE MEET THE LOVE OF OUR LIFE :)
Every step we take is a step closer to Liverpool. Indeed.

SELLING

2009-07-22T22:56:00.002+08:00

Liverpool - Singapore Tickets x2

South Stand

Pls email Fel @ pei_xuan_felicia@hotmail.com

2009-07-22T18:15:00.003+08:00

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ONE MORE DAY TILL WE BREATHE THE SAME AIR.

I'M SO FUCKING EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

No more time for anything else.
My life will revolve around studies, cheerleading and LIVERPOOL.

No rivalry during cheer this year :) Garde girls are wonderful I'm glad they're all great people. I can't believe my Rock's in cheer HAHA she's going to be teased for life <3>

I am seriously contented with who and what's in my life now. I don't think I've ever been happier . The best part's about life is learning to let go and seeing how amazing it is without a load, a burden, or anything to pull you down. The freedom of flight, the freedom to fight. I'm not giving up any single thing now. Everything/Everyone's too dear to me to let go :)

Including wadwereyouthinking! x)

Xo hots.

RACIAL HARMONYXZX

2009-07-21T22:08:00.005+08:00

So it was Racial Harmony's today! Went to school flopping around in my heels that I could not really squeeze in, I h8 my weird abnormal feet :( But it was cheap thrills to be taller than Alicia cheong :D

Ai ni (even though u always say I'm a bad kid!!!)

My second favourite junior HAHA SECOND HAHAHHAHA

4P (part) with Mrs Koh!

:) The Lovers clique!! (missing Mchelley :( )

This picture was to emphasis the Azel-Alicia shortness compared to the super tall Mel-Sangee

This is going to be one of my favouritest pics

Mel and Cheong got same face!!

FB is flooded with Cedarians uploading RHD'09 pictures HAHA. Okok, this is wasting time I need to go do work now!! :) Alright, until the 28th Aug, I think I won't be able to sleep well/eat well/rest well/ do anything right...

I really hope I can settle cheer well, XY we must persevere through this :) I really want Ole to be on top and on form again... I hope Fel can seive me some SNGS stunts/tricks (hehe) SNGS cheerleading is like, THE BEST.

Ok, off to study. :)

2more days till Liverpool. And Alonso's coming.

Imagine, that, him, here, beside, me. Fuck crazy.

Xo hots.

2009-07-20T20:10:00.002+08:00

Today, me and Eunice made a pact to be happy everyday.

Happy enough to not regret each day, and to be able to die anytime, anyday.

Everyday, we'll ask each other if we can die that day.

I hope the answer each day will be Yes.

I love you BFF.

Feel the Heat

2009-07-20T17:02:00.006+08:00

Had Cheer stunts trials today, and audtioned the sec1s. We can't help but feel the heat already, we have no strong bases but I hope we can make it. Love how cheer makes me unhungry :)

The teachers are all highly doubting my capibility to pass my Prelims2 since I've joined Cheer HAHA screw that. Anyway, I received a extraextra spectacular heartpounding heartracing out of my body good news today from YenJie and Fel.

Now, I really can't wait for LVP's arrival.

Me : Mr tan, 6more days!

Mr Tan : Aiyah, can't you focus on your Os now, earn enough money and go to England next time?

Me : Are you crazy?!

Mr Tan : Did you read the strs times on the crazy Lvp fan?

Me : Yupp, my cousin's one of the winners :)

Mr Tan : ?!

Xo hots, 3more days till touch down, 6 days till we dye our hair Red.

Six Days

2009-07-20T01:20:00.004+08:00

Six days till the best feeling in the world. It doesn't matter if Alonso's packed for Real Madrid, what matters is the team is here. The LVP KOP comes alive :)

XO hots.

(As you can tell, all life is just all about LVP now. Fel and Chris's blogs are just about th same, we really really can't wait :) )

* Girls, I hope England at the end of the year comes true too :) Luv you forever.

Liverpool

2009-07-19T18:12:00.002+08:00

It's actually 3 more days till' LVP arrives in Singapore. We've got our schedules planned according to the Liverpool schedule :)

Friday, we've got the greet session @ Novena. Training sessions @ National Stadium.
Saturday, the River Cruise.
Sunday, the actual match.

I can't imagine how excited I will be when I hear news of their arrival.
I can't imagine that I started counting down from 60days and now, it's a week to the match.
It's coming, it's coming, it's coming, it's coming. IT'S FUCKING COMING HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

(Inserts extraextraextra excited face!!!!)

Good times gonna come

2009-07-19T09:36:00.007+08:00

Drey and I made a fantastic discovery on how turn off flirts can be. 0/10 for you!

I had happy days lately :) Just that, I've been also having constant quarrels with Dad+ Mom haha. Fuck it, until the day I produce a 6pt they will never cease to doubt me.

Friday was Harrie Powter and the Raging Hormones day with 4P! it was such a fantastic day with us being such noisy people in the mall/cinema. Whining to mommy at all times, taking multiple pictures, going to Frolicks for cute girls ... Anyway, Dad wanted to kill me for reaching home late haha. I must be the only girl still with a curfew but oh well who cares cheerios to me!

Saturday was CHEER at 8am. We're so ahead of schedule it's scary. Went back for tuition, headed out to meeet backside to mug our mugging heads away! walked to Granny's, as usual one of my favourite walks of all :)

Nobody nobody but chu!

ALIBUNG U NEED TO STOP SHAKING THE CAMERA

I'm so glad this is the class I'm going thru the Os with :)

Heart heart hearting to 4p luv u till the Sun makes a U-turn and heads out of the universe.

Had a good talk with Beng and Couzins just now. Beng figured the only way I'd be able to "live up to expectations" is to stop fucking up my emotions 24/7. I agree.

Because it's expectations that kill us, it's expectations I will fight.

Xo hots.

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up

2009-07-17T23:58:00.003+08:00

It kills to have to be one way out of home and another way at home.

How long do you think I can live in this fucking house of hypocracy, judgements, and materialism.

I wished I was fucking special so I can exist in the world that expects nothing less than perfection from you.

x.

Note to self

2009-07-16T17:11:00.002+08:00

1) Cheer Audits
2) Poms
3) Select songs, cut songs
4) Stunts
5) Routine
6) Cheer
7) Skirts
8) House cheers
9) Rehersal

Prelims in 26 days.
O level Coursework in 2 weeks.
O levels in 102 days (plus minus)
Liverpool in 10 days.

I luv being a busy girl.

I'm joshing, tomorrow will be a happy day, the day we purchase all the Carlsberg available. Fel says we should stand in town and give them out once we got the tickets for the respective events. Oh, and and and HARRY POTTER TOMORROWWWWW X)

xo hots!!

250908/

"It's time"

2009-07-15T19:32:00.002+08:00

Such an eventful day.

1) Went to school with less than an hour of sleep
2) Was greeted with news of Alonso's decision to leave LVP and that he may not be coming to SG
3) Also read that Monsters would be roughly purchasing 6(people) x 2(cartons) x6(beers each) x 2 (venues) = 144 cans of Carlsberg, just so we can win tickets for the meet-and-greet sessions
4) CHEERLEADING IS BACK.

3years of cheer, and this is the last chance :) Time to bring Ole back to where we were before. Capt or not capt it doesnt really matter I'm sure Che Wan and I can work things out fine hhehe. Goodness I must be insane thinking it might actually work out, I know the fucking stress that's going to multiply as the days go by but what the fuck, it's Cheer.

Cheer makes Cedar air much more worth breathing in :)
Xo hots

2009-07-15T05:19:00.001+08:00

Omg goodnight world, it's 5.19am. Two alarms rang, now for two more.
But, then again it was a good night talk :)

Change is the only constant

2009-07-15T03:11:00.004+08:00

I think I'm quite crazy over FTC because all I've been listening to is his songs since it's all that works in my laptop, so lyrics I put up are all from his songs HAHAHAHA.

Yes it's another 3am night. According to Camille I'm not suppose to sleep because I ate while studying, and I have to sleep only 4hours later. Which is equivalent to ... 6am? School? HAHA. I'm praying they have coffee tomorrow in the canteen, they have to have it :/

Ogays I'm not quite sure what to blog about. HOW
ABOUT 11 DAYS TO LIVERPOOL

HEHEHHE

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Today, Mdm Audra rang me up for some matters during school hours and I didn't pick up. When I went to see her shortly after, she was like, "I called you! And when you picked up I wanted to scold you for using the phone in school." HAHA WTHHHHH.

ogays, will sleep @ 3.57am.
I had fun laughing at Drunkkid tonight :)

Xo hots! 3more months till NO MORE CEDAR AIR. Shiok.

Sleepygirl

2009-07-14T01:01:00.005+08:00

I was attempting to complete my essay outside of my house (because I reckoned I'd have more inspiration there?) I fell asleep like a million times! I was raisining, green tea-ing, then I took digestives. Wahlao, tell me if studying doesn't make you fat I will slap you in the head with my Bio textbook that's missing __

Happy Birthday Mel (:
We've got a surprise for you coming up and I just need to thank you for being so hot and cute and such a lovely sight in class HAHA. Love you!!

The day Drey and I felt very ... Together.

I'm trying my best to complete the damned testimonial online but all I am really doing is being annoying to Drey and looking at blogshops! Slaps self. Do work do work!

Xo hots :) 12 days, imagine that.

We can dance, We can sing

2009-07-12T22:53:00.003+08:00

HARPER'S ISLAND IS SO FUCKING CRAZY. DAMMIT I LOVE THAT BLOODY SHOW HAHA. BUT I SWEAR, MY HEART CANNOT TAHAN TOO EXCITING

(TODAY me and drey had a g8 time studying @ NP, I think we really studied!! HAHA. Drey came over to my place for dinner and we were quite cute together hehe)

Being happy isn't that difficult after all.
Harper's Island = ecstasy on the roll.

(Edit)
OMG HARPER'S JUST ENDED. I DON'T KNOW HOW THE SHOW CAN BE SO BITTER SWEET AND SO CRAZY SO OMG OMGOMGOMGOMG CANNOT TAHAN SLAPS SELF OMG I DONT KNOW WHAT TO SAY ANYMORE BEST FUCKING SHOW EVER.

SHIOK

2009-07-12T10:58:00.005+08:00

1) Performing was alright, for once they mentioned that I improved a lot :) I hope I don't fail this time around. Thank you Queen, you're such a dear friend :)

2) FACE OFF! Been ages since I've attended a gig with Backside, felt great standing at the front watching our good friend :) Good job Hahahhabung Luv you forever!

3) FORTHISCYCLE EP LAUNCH !! Harith and I were singing along to all WW's songs haha (BIG FANS WHOOHOO). Never enjoyed myself so much for a long time :)
Always great to mingle with old friends :)

4) Keppal Bay with Monsters to make our dear Liverpool posters <3 Shiok we can't wait for Liverpool can you imagine it's only 14days more? Fel's trying to win her way to be one of the ball girls (using my information thanks), we're gonna call everyday for the strs times competition WE WANT TRAINING PASSES!

5) Thank you Backside for being beside me the entire day even though u were tmd pissed for paying 15+7 dollars. Was great to hold you by my side watching them :) My No.1 backside foreberx.

6) Alibung, you're right. I still got BOTB's hands to hold :)

" Sometimes we just try to hard to be somebody else, when all we have to do is be ourselves. "

Xo hots!

2009-07-11T10:22:00.001+08:00

Melt me down
into big black armour
Leave no trace
Of grace
Just in your honor

Lower me down
pin me in
Secure the grounds
For the later parade

The stars at night turned deep to dust.

(On replay)

2009-07-09T22:12:00.002+08:00

I wanna sit at my favourite SG spot
For 15hours33min4seconds
Let the colours of the skies take my breath away
Let the sounds of the crazy seas be my ipod
Let the only thing I see be peace and comfort.

Then I wanna get up from that fantasy
Let you be the first one I see.

I wanna smile the smile I smile when I see you smile.

Its not more fun being the only one

Lambie

2009-07-09T19:49:00.003+08:00

Norah Jones has the prettiest voice.

Thank you Drey for being one of the most supportive and understanding friend in the entire world, we got many many things we've got to do before you go to a school that I don't like HAHA. <3

Xo hots

MIND FUCKER

2009-07-08T21:32:00.003+08:00

I luv it that my class can score the highest L1R5 possible in the cohod and not give a fuck. It's not that we don't mug, we really do, we're just set and done being this way :) Results were not up to expectations, but I think I can get into a JC with my P1 results HAHA.

I like talking to old friends because they know you the best.

18 DAYS TO LIVERPOOL . (IT;S COMINGGGGGGGGG) says:
I NEED TO GO STUDY
:)

Remus. Nullify says:
so azel now
talk to you soon ok

(There should honestly be more in my life than mugging HAHA)

Oh right. Saturday's going to be jam packed... Apparently I have music prelims (performing) on Saturday at 830am. Ha ha ha, which I only got to know about TODAY. Tell me how the fuck am I going to even get my trumpet from the band room and learn a piece and pass my prelims! HAHA I love OLM it's honestly the joy of my week. x)

Happy Birthday Michelley Ai ni<3
XO hots.

Hilarious

2009-07-07T22:01:00.003+08:00

Mom laughed and laughed and laughed and asked how I turned out the way I am now.

This is hilarious, I was such a vain baby.

Prelims #1

2009-07-07T19:15:00.002+08:00

I failed my Chem... Thank god I'm switching to Combined, everyone's asking me why I did so and that I still had hope, guess I don't have much faith in myself teehees.

Passed everything else, EMaths was a surprise I'm glad :) Everything else was simply a disappointment :/ Sigh, I'm quite sick of being disappointed in myself...

Had a good time with Lw and Caryn @ Frolicks, the girl there wasn't as pretty as others I saw. They came up with a theory Frolicks boss is secretly gay and only hires pretty girls(like the NUM analogy?), but I kinda think they're just cheekopehs! Cheered me up alil' from my dreaful results thank you sweetie.

Dad was part 2. He gave me a good lecture first, telling me that I wasn't working hard enough and that to achieve the results i am expected to, it's the hard work I have to put in. He always says "Clock in the hours." Yeah, I kinda believe him. Then, he brought me to his Therapeutic Sanctuary (in other words Lower Seletar) and we had a good jog :) I sat at the rocky area and stared at the sun change from a glaring yellow, to a misty orange and slowly fading away into the clouds. Just as everything was about to end, I saw Dad at the corner of my eye smiling to me.

"Let's go babe."

That's when I know that no matter what, it's who that stays by you that really matters the most.
Once again I am a very big Daddy's girl <3>

Sorry.

Nautical

2009-07-06T22:17:00.002+08:00

Omg I forgot my Tattoo day on 6th July :/ Love you star I will never forget the day I got you and the trouble you caused and the happiness you brought me :)

School, starts, tomorrow.
I will miss you.

Final

2009-07-06T10:56:00.007+08:00

Today is the last day of the Holidays, I hereby pledge myself to be fully committed to my work and not have my mind wander to someplace else.

-I will not let any news of anyone/anything affect my focus and I will block out whatever is necessary. (In other words, NO STALKING)
-I will concentrate and I will not falter from my books to my phone/computer/piano/television (NO FRIENDS, NO CSI AT 2-5AM, NO JAMIE OLIVER)
-I will have proper meals and proper exercise. (Fish soup everyday hoho)
-I will treat my friends and family much better and not have daily mood swings. (let this be vice versa pls)
-I will NOT stop watching F1, soccer (haha this one cannot sacrifice Monsters when soccer comes back every week my house or YJ's house k heheh)
-I will not give in to temptations. (Even if Drey's wearing a super short shorts and her legs are just beside me HAHAHA)

And till the next time I have fun girlies :)

Our post exam tradition @ Sentosa

Mugging at AMK Macs till 3plus together

Oh Monsters let's still have our September Holidays Study Camp! :)

Tues, Thurs study dates at Novenananana

Two years together you girls are gems

Stupid bimbo next year's your turn I throw you all my notes :)

Miss you like crazy we're alws so near yet so far Lolli :(

Hi this is my lifeline

And this is my life :)

i'd love to say I will be on Hiatus till after the Os, unfortunately I will not be able to do that cos I really really need to rant whenever I have a mental meltdown. Too bad hehe, wadwereyouthinking's stuck with me for a good long time hehe.

Xo hots :) Study hard!

X

2009-07-05T19:26:00.002+08:00

I'm not in love, this is not my heart.
I'm not gonna waste these words, about a girl.

I want to :
1) Go to the airport and drink coffee with Drey
2) Sit at Lentor Playground and watch the little kids play
3) Clear my doubts and start anew.
4) Runaway.

Who stays, Who goes

2009-07-05T03:31:00.002+08:00

Well I'm pretty lazy to upload the 100+ photos here, will do it slowly :)

I tried to do handstands for you

But everytime I fell for you

I'm permanently black and blue,

permanently blue for you.

Photos

2009-07-04T23:02:00.010+08:00

Hi Drey these are the pictures :) See, I AM EFFICIENT.

It's so funny talking to new-old friends! I'm actually talking to Choy now, and he's telling me all his scandalous secrets HAHA!!

Today was a typical day I had tuition, I went to Cathay, LW came along, we walked around and she discovered the fact I was really similar to her ex girlfriend (which is good or bad I dont know)... Oh well, walked to Grannys and had a nice time with my couzzins :)

Hogays, I have Sentosa pictures to upload!!!!! Xo hots!

My back is like red and itchy, consequences of not sun blocking enough :(

2009-07-04T13:19:00.002+08:00

Michael Owen's 2year deal with Manchester United.
What the fuck was he thinking?
It's going to be hell watching him put on the Devils jersey playing a game with the Devils as a Devil.

Stange and Beautiful

2009-07-03T23:21:00.003+08:00

I'm at YJ's place now! Went to Sentosa today with Lovers clique I have a thousand and one photographs to upload ad resize oh my god HAHA. Monday's youth day, Alibung you still want your Pulau Ubin cycling class outing?

I'm quite proud of the fact my life revolves around school and my cousins. It's quite a fortunate thing and i feel very blessed about that. Someone told me something today and I got affected for 3seconds, I shouldn't be :)

Karma strikes back hehe.

Xo hots!

Days like these

2009-07-02T23:34:00.002+08:00

BOTB day out without Foxy Woxy but it was still fun :) Had a good girlie talk with Bung and Backside @ MOF, hehe love heart to heart talks, makes me feel useful and relevant.

Nat came along, LW came along too for awhile. Thank you for letting me know u'll be gone for 19 fucking days i feel like I'm going to have a fucking long distant relationship I don't know why I'm so pissed when it's not her fault. DreyLee came and we went to watch 3D Ice Age!

Went to Glutton's Bay for Dinner/Supper and walked by the Riverside. Talked about the most relevant topics and I realised how lucky I was to be in all this together with them :) girls that matter the most :)

Cold war with Dad. I don't like this night.
Xo hots.

Fault

2009-07-02T12:31:00.002+08:00

I can't wait for Liverpool's arrival I think I'm going nuts I wil not insert any punctuations so as to emphasis on how badly derranged my mind is currently I have nothing much to say but that I am realy excited for the 26th of July and that I have no idea why I'm so fucking obsessed Oh god this is bad I really want to see them live in action it's getting quite crazy I don't know how I'd react when they step foot in Sg I hope i get to go to the airport and stalk them day in day out haha I'm just kidding Fel will plan all that teehees In the meantime I should jolly well be mugging and studying since the very loserish me has already dropped to combined science which means I have already admitted defeat to Science wow and honestly I have absolutely no mood to mug anymore O levels is killing me and I still have yet to find a hobby how about using the internet that's a hobby right No not exactly if its a hobby it's a fucked up hobby cos it doesnt exactly give me much of any benefits aite anyway I'm a Pokemon do I really look like one I hope not Pokemons are pocket monsters I wanna be a closet monster those that creep out in the middle of the night like monsters inc Haha now that will be a hobby

Im out
xo hots

Youthy

2009-06-30T21:32:00.005+08:00

I just came back from AYG @ Bishan Stadium! Was with 4P to support Mel and cheer the Superstar on :) Didn't really know Athletics could be so interesting to watch, and pole vault is so eggggggciting!

Mel did great , I think all of us were rly rly proud of her and to see her at her prime was a big treat. I don't think I saw her jump before!
And hearts out to my Superstar I think I told you what I needed to tnight hehe.

Alright, apart from that i am fucking tired and i think I dropped my phone thrice today (-.-) And and and, I will not open my big mouth in front of the camera man in the future HAHA :P

TWENTY SEVEN MORE DAYS TILL A DREAM COME TRUE, IMAGINE THAT, TWENTY SEVEN. 27!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Liverpool we're waiting for you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (inserts gazillion hearts)

Hehehehehehhehehhehehehehehheh x)

MEL LOOKS SO CUTE HERE

Alrighties, tmr hopefully I get to meet the Superstar before I head down to TK for music omg seems like forever since i talked to Haydn HAHA. Xo hots!

Ramble Ramble

2009-06-29T21:22:00.002+08:00

I think I was in a terribly whiny mood today, I couldn't stop whining!

-Cedar (thank you Chia, Begum and Wong I finally made a choice).
-Cityhall with Superstar
- Ngee Ann Poly for Face Off (Hahabung, Carmen asked if we were tgt HAHA)
-Bishan for Fel and Krystal (thank you for supplying me with food and a listening ear)
-Home to see Lw and Mel on Teevee! (Mel looked cuter)

I realised, I do not have a hobby. Dad says it's Text messaging but what the hell, I dont want that as a hobby?! It used to be baking and cooking and jogging but nowadays, baking wastes time, jogging gives me allergies, cooking is not required... I DONT HAVE A FUCKING HOBBY. I NEED A HOBBY -.-

Xo hots.

2009-06-29T08:44:00.002+08:00

i don't know why I woke up so early -.-

BUT ANYWAY, SUPERSTAR'S ON THE PAPERS AGAIN!!
Note to self : do not shout "OMG HOLY COW WHY HER AGAIN." when my parents are just beside me... Dad was giving "the look". Again.

Ogays off to school in an hour (i wonder why it's An hour and not A hour...)
Xo hots!

Hi sweetie

2009-06-28T22:25:00.005+08:00

How's Day2 of Post Prelims for you!
1) I spent the night with Felicia Lim the terrible
2) I had tuition at 930 in the morning
3) I went to play badminton with Monsters
4) I went for Flea TItans with Monsters and LW!

(Pics from Da vinci)

Today!

"So you think u veh cute??"

Meet my little superstar runner!

Well we HADDD to take a picture since it was LW's first time out with Monsters HAHA. Omg so touristy aite.

---------------------------------

Anyway, just realised I didn't do well for Chem too... Sigh I'm beginning to feel that getting <6pts>

I really hope it works, I'm going to talk to Ms Begum tomorrow to get advice. Hardcore, I really need to work for this :(

Ok on the bright side, meeting Superstar tomorrow HEHE X)

Xo hots! harper's so interesting hoho

Wont go home without you

2009-06-28T00:00:00.002+08:00

Wished that we started this when we had no commitments and duties.
You me without the world.

Sweaty palms

2009-06-27T10:53:00.015+08:00

First and foremost...

FUCK YOU PRELIMS FUCK YOU.

Second of all, girl with the sweaty palms that refuse to walk long distances and can't stop taking pictures.

(:

Thirdly, Drag me to Hell is a fucking insane show which has super loud surround sound and Fel and I just couldnt stop laughing at how nonsensical we looked covering our eyes throughout the show and how we knocked our heads together cos we were trying to hide HHAA.

Lastly, Thank you backside for making the final day so lovely :) I love you!

I REALLY LIKE THIS PICTURE HOW CAN U NOT AGREE :(

That's Day#1 of the post-prelims R&R session. I can't express how tired I am right now but I really wanna watch Supernatural Season 4 :(

Can't believe we don't have school next week, I want to stay in bed all day and make up for all the lost sleep I've had. End of Prelims = End of losing weight... Must everything have a downside to it?!

I can't wait to see Monsters and BBF again. Can't wait for class outing. Can't wait to meet BOTB. Can't wait for Lovers outing. Can't wait to stop panadolling to curb headaches. Can't wait to go jogging with Gaydad at upper seletar. Can't wait to visit town more (SO WE WON'T GET LOST DREY). Can't wait to go to Cathay again!! Can't wait to sleep for more than 6hrs. Can't wait to test her slow reaction again HAHA.

XO HOTS IMMA HAPPY GIRLIE YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.

What's wrong, What's right

2009-06-26T11:07:00.003+08:00

Miss you like hell girlies

1) Heart goes out to you M.J and family. It seemed so impossible for such a mega star to pass away. c'est la vie!

2) Failed Bio, dropping to Combined, impulsive once again but I hope it'll get me somewhere.

3) Will be having my well-deserved break as of this moment :)

Xo hots.

13

2009-06-26T02:23:00.002+08:00

How do you start believing again?

Start with the right heart.

2009-06-25T20:36:00.003+08:00

!eunice YOUTUBE HAS LOTS OF IDIOTS says:
i just want to say HOW ON EARTH DID USA WIN

31 DAYS TO LIVERPOOL . (this countdown is actually really long-.-) says:
WHAT USA

!eunice YOUTUBE HAS LOTS OF IDIOTS says:
u dunno!!!!

31 DAYS TO LIVERPOOL . (this countdown is actually really long-.-) says:
SHOW ME
MS UNIVERSE?
hhahaahha

!eunice YOUTUBE HAS LOTS OF IDIOTS says:
usa won SPAIN
in fifa confederation!

31 DAYS TO LIVERPOOL . (this countdown is actually really long-.-) says:
HAHAHAHAHA
FUCK

!eunice YOUTUBE HAS LOTS OF IDIOTS says:
-.-
u r an idiot
hahahha

I shall blame it on my eagerness to get past my Lit paper that I've become completely ridiculous. Ogays study study study Zelly, enjoy the night later :)

To more endless night conversations and my continuous weight lost. Thanks to mugging for Prelims which I have had liquid diets the past two weeks. I LOST TWO KG (REJOICEEE)

Xo hots.

LAST PAPER

2009-06-25T14:43:00.002+08:00

I am radiant, not merely because of my new found love in Webcamming, or because I've spent most of my eye energy at starring at my computer screen...

BUT BECAUSE TOMORROW IS MY FINAL PAPER!!!!!!!!
(Rejoices wildly)

But on the sadder note, A MATHS WAS FUCKED UP. It was as though I was doing a foreign paper and I pretty much gave up half way. The best thing my school does is provide us with the worst possible scenario of an examination so we can all fuck it up. And when the Olvls results turn out well, they get the credit for "Adding value" to us.

Bull. Shit.

I miss Monsters! You bitches, HOW CAN U GO OUT WITHOUT ME HUH HUH. I demand a move to Kovan :( HAHA.
The world is very, very small.

Xo hots!

TGIF WILL NEVER BE THE SAME AGAIN.
FRIDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Day #3

2009-06-24T17:26:00.003+08:00

1) I fell asleep without completing my revision on Amaths and didn't get to 1am to complete my day.
2) I took 2 panadols after the first Maths paper and realised I had none left.
3) I fucked up my Amaths paper with a massive headache and an empty stomach.
4) My sweets got taken away by my favourite Maths teacher and I could not sit still in Geog.
5) Saw the cutest girl on the papers and beamed in delight.
6) Fucked it up again.

Goodnight.

(I hope I get sick so I can stay in bed the entire day.)